Barney Inada....still on my mind and in my heart

Still miss Barney........and Helen

Barney in Japantown Aug. 2009

We used to go Japantown every August with Barney. This is the first August since 2001 we have NOT gone to J-Town.

Six Months since Barney Inada died.....

Its been almost 6 months since Barney died and I still miss him dearly.

The death of my own father has not been as painful as losing Barney. The guilt and shame still haunts me at night.

Barney, I am so sorry I failed you.

Sea Otter in Marina, CA

Sunday night we rode our daily route through Fort Ord Dunes State Park and stopped by the site of Stilwell Hall.

Sea otters are not common in Marina.

This little guy appeared to be in trouble. We called the Marine Mammal Rescue Center and they were awsome!

Hopefully he'll be okay.

Fort Ord State Park

Fort Ord State Park. Looking over the ocean at the site of the old Stillwell Hall.

Guilt and regret: Barney Inada

Maybe its cathartic to write about Barney. The pain is deep and I miss him beyound words. The reality is that I am responsible for Barney's death.

Dreams of Barney and Joe Montana

I have been having the strangest dreams lately One version; Joe Montana knocks on the front door and scolds me for "failing Barney", he growls "you let him down, what kind of person lets a helpless man die"

Another version I am in a job interview and it is going well until Joe walks in and whispers in the ear of the interviewer and both glare at me.

I miss Barney.