Guilt and regret: Barney Inada

Maybe its cathartic to write about Barney. The pain is deep and I miss him beyound words. The reality is that I am responsible for Barney's death.

Dreams of Barney and Joe Montana

I have been having the strangest dreams lately One version; Joe Montana knocks on the front door and scolds me for "failing Barney", he growls "you let him down, what kind of person lets a helpless man die"

Another version I am in a job interview and it is going well until Joe walks in and whispers in the ear of the interviewer and both glare at me.

I miss Barney.