Fun in Milpitas

This past Saturday I saw "Kick-Ass" with Susan Aoki, Craig Clark, Mike Covington, Chuck Berry and his niece.

It was really fun to get out of Marina. Milpitas rocks........wow......it has changed. I had a really good time. I feel a little guily having so much fun.

I still miss Barney terribly.......it rips my heart out thinking of his death.

Walk from SJSU to JapanTown

On Tuesdays and Thursdays I drive Dale to math class at SJSU. I have been walking and rewalking my steps from SJSU to Japantown.

I do this because Barney was still alive on February 21, 2010 when I walked down from Taylor street where the Circus de Solel was to the Spaghetti Factory.

I had dinner with the O'Haras which was fun then I walked back up First St. to Japantown and met Dale, Barney, Melanie and Leilani at Happi House.

I keep walking this route hoping to recapture the feeling I had the day before Barney died February 21, 2010.

How can I still miss Barney Inada?

Barney Inada has been dead for almost 7 weeks and I still cry myself to sleep. Dale is still an asshole and I still greatly miss Barney.

I went to Santa Cruz and saw the O'Hara families: Kathleen, Roisin, Kiera, Moira and mom but my mind still thought back to Barney and our outings to Pacific Ave.

Barney was like a child.

Kathleen had some good thoughts today. First I should look into the Center for Dying and second I should seek a support group for Caregivers.

I cry every night......hell I pull my hair out screaming, thinking about Barney.

I took Barney out last Febraury for his birthday. We had Japanese food and saw The Usual Case of Benjamin Buttons in Pacific Grove.

Barney had a great time. I had fun watching Barney have fun. But I started to think I have a 78 year old man that has reverted to a child. I call him "little boy" and he will likely die before me. There were alot of parallel between Barney and Brad Pitt as Benjamin Buttons.

Dale was at school and was NOT pleased that I took Barney.

Best thing I ever did......I miss Barney

Easter is the time to....Hula Hoop

Roisin and Moira like to Hula Hoop. Easter 2010 at Kathleen's House.

Cold wet rainy day.

Hula Hoops for Easter

Kiera does the hula hoop very well.

Easter 2010 at Kathleen's house. Kiera, Moira, Roisin and Kathleen know how to hula hoop.

Barney would have had a great time today. He always loved kids.

More Barney Inada....cute..cuter...cutest!!!

This photo of Barney was one day before he died, at the Happi House in San Jose. Dale, Mel and the kids took Barney is the Circus de Soleil. They all had a great time.

I miss Barney so much....why didn't I call 911.....